So you think you are afraid of change? Think again

 AN UPDATE  IS NOW AVAILABLE

SO So for the last week or so each time this phone has been plugged in overnight, I awake with the message that an update has been downloaded and is now available…. Install Now?  Well for various insignificant reasons I avoid installing updates out of fear that this time…this time… the adjustments needed will not bring my phone back to the place where I feel. Most comfortable.  So I’m wondering  how much time we spend (by we I mean I) in a given state worrying about why the future state will bring and not really grasping the reality that we are choosing our anxiety?  What?

Well as a friend reminded me today… we expect change in some aspects of our life and resist in others and we often do this based upon fairly shaky assumptions that we somehow hide in oblivion.  

Let’s  take change… which is another word for “update.” How would  we be feeling if there were no expectation of updates in medical care?  Would we like to go to the barber shop for dentistry and would we love to have serious discussions regarding the length of time we would like to experience blood letting?   Oh and what would the reaction be if Ford  and Chevy came out and said their entire line of trucks and cars were going  to revert back to the exact  specs of those vehicles that rolled off the line in 1943?—No air— no Fm  radio—terrible gas mileage—less than optimal steering and brakes?  Oh and what if the best computer we could get at home was a commodore  64?  

Going even further … what if children all the sudden stopped growing physically  and cognitively at the age of 8 or 10?  

You see in very real ways we expect and want growth and change and one might go as far as saying demand  it.  The  “norm” is an expectation of change and growth. In fact, in some ways  fear is generated when  growth and change doesn’t happen.  So what does it mean when we fear when change  happens and fear when it doesn’t?  So maybe what we fear is not change, however that fear is all about fear of making choices and taking responsibility?  Maybe seeking peace and joy is  a process of accepting uncertain results of certain change and understanding  the human experience will not include controlling  neither the process nor outcomes that reflects our experiences and the ways we bring meaning to them.  In short I thin there re days when I don’t recognized choice and the time for it.  

Anyway I know this a “deep” entry and I imagine it has something to do with  this being post 499  on this blog and I’ve been thinking. About post 500 and the importance it has for me.  500 means  I’m choosing to act on my urges that i name. As inspiration.  Well that’s the topic for entry 500 so I won’t. Go there…. However I will go  to a place where writing these often takes me and that is crafting  song lyrics.   And while I’ve shared. Some of these  lyrics in the past this song has come to rest and I’ll wrap up this post with  the “completed set” of lyrics to that song.  

It’s about choosing …

You’ve got to have you some adventures before your story’s told

Learn  to play old maid before you get too old

You’ve got to win at some gin rummy with or without  gin

Doesn’t matter where. You’re headed  you are learning to begin..

Right here right now—somewhere  some how

You’ve got to learn  how to laugh with a tear drop in your eye

Learn how to admit. What some folks might deny

Learn to love me forgive without knowing why

Then you. Can fall from grace and still dare. To fly

You  know that there’ll be waiting  all along the way

Patience  gets frustrating  but it’s just the price you pay

You gotta step up to the the shell of fate and give it a big spin

As you  can’t know where you’re going but  you’ve learned where. You begin ..

Right here  right now

Somewhere some how..

You learn how to laugh  with a tear drop in your eye

Get strong enough to admit what others  might deny

You find out how to love and forgive  without knowing  why

And you can almost fall from grace  

And still dare to fly

You’ll come to crash through the glass ceiling that other folks can’t see

You’ll keep on believing it the best. That folks  can be

You will stumble forward. Get up time and time again

Toward every place you’re going. No matter where you’ve been…because 

You’re living …

Right. Here …right now … it’s real  some how

You’ve learned how to laugh with a tear drop in your eye

Strong enough to admit what  others may deny

You’ve lerned to love and forgive with no fear of why…

You can fall from grace and still dare…can fall from grace…. Nd still dare to fly……